18 April 2008


It's very late and I'm quite tired, but I was thinking and I totally turned in my last final ever this afternoon and, with the exception of actually walking across the stage and receiving my diploma which isn't even required, I'm completely finished with University. Also that was a very long run on sentence. Anyway, I was thinking about how excited I am to be moving on with my life and doing all kinds of new and exciting things, but at the same time how much I'm going to miss the security of college life and the familiar people, places, and activities. Not only have they been a security to me but they have been really fun! I've had an amazing time in College and part of me wants to stay forever. That's not really realistic for one and it isn't responsible for another, but it's a nice thought sometimes. I am a creature of habit and this isn't going to be the easiest transition for me. Whenever I move or change something pretty big in my life it takes me a little while to get used to it, and I'm doing both right now! Yikes! Well, I'm sure it will be a good thing! I'm really looking forward to not having any homework, that's for sure! More on my graduation and feelings on being in the real adult world to come. Until then, I bid you all adieu.

13 April 2008

A Hitchcock Marathon

For the last little while my roommates and I have been planning to do a big end of the year hurrah and yesterday we did. We had a Hitchcock marathon. All day long we watched movie after movie and by the end of the day, I was pretty much sure that my brain was just fried!

We began our day with some cranberry orange muffins and a little Rear Window. It was so good! It's a story about a man - Jeffries (James Stewart)- with a broken leg who is confined to his apartment and a wheelchair so he watches his neighbors lives play out in the courtyard. He then comes to suspect that one of his neighbors has killed his wife so he gets his girlfriend (Grace Kelly) and the woman who comes to take care of him to help investigate. When his suspicions turn out to be correct things go into hyper-drive and it turns into an intense and highly dramatic ending. Well, overall I thought it was a great film! You really get a sense of what Hitchcock was after in all of his film with Rear Window. The perspective, the intimate look into the character's lives, all of it was expertly done! Hooray for that one!

Our second film of the day was Vertigo. It was one surprise after another! I rarely saw what was coming next and was in constant anticipation! The story is about a police detective (James Stewart) who retires because he has vertigo and watched a fellow officer fall to his death because he couldn't handle heights. He is hired by an old friend to follow his wife (Kim Novak), who the friend suspects, has been possessed by the spirit of someone who had passed on. As we watched it, my roommate and I kept thinking 'Oh now it's over' but it wasn't. It kind of kept going and going. Strangely, it didn't get old. The trick endings didn't even seem to bother me that much. The twists and turns that take you for a ride through history of lies and deceptions are thrilling! Not to mention a little murder here and there. Just for spice!

Psycho was our third of the day. A true classic and one that probably has the most popular references to out of any of them. It's hard to say much about it without giving away crucial plot points, but there is a girl who is running away and trying to free her boyfriend. She ends up at the Bates Motel, which is run by the troubled and slightly disturbed Norman Bates (Anthony Perkins) one rainy night and ends up being stabbed to death in the shower! (If you didn't know about the famous shower scene, I don't know where you've been hiding so I don't feel bad about 'ruining' that little bit.) The story then follows her boyfriend and sister (Vera Miles) as they try to find out what happened at the Bates Motel that night and what has become of Marion (Janet Leigh). Just as a side note, it took 7 days to shoot the shower scene and 70 camera set ups for 45 seconds of film. And you don't see a bare breast or a plunging knife anywhere! Amazing! It's a must see I would say! (Also, on the night of filming the rainy arrival scene, there was a full moon that hadn't been accounted for so the grip crew had to follow the moon with a big black cover all night. Ha ha ha!!! Awesome!)

After that, we decided to go back in time a little bit to 1935 and watch The 39 Steps. This classic is really a classic! It is about a Canadian (Robert Donat) who is in London and is found by a woman who is on the run from foreign agents. That night she is murdered, then he is on the run from the same people who killed her in order to save a national secret! He then travels all through the Scottish countryside to break the spy ring and prove his innocence. I didn't find it the most thrilling of the day, but if you're into really old movies then it is awesome!

Next was Suspicion. It was probably the one with the best comedic timing in my opinion and also the best romance. Lina McLaidlaw (Joan Fontaine) is a well off, but not to socially involved, beauty who is swept off her feet by Johnnie Aysgarth (Cary Grant - Swoon!) the playboy who woos and marries her! When things start happening and he starts lying to her, she all of a sudden suspects that she might be married to a murderer... And that she might be the next victim!!! It is a lovely film that was absolutely fun to watch! As she becomes more and more suspicious of him, they grow apart until... Well, watch it and find out!

Our last movie of the day was Dial M For Murder. As far as the movies we watched, this was definitely in my top choices. The movie begins with a couple in love. The man (Robert Cummings) is an old flame of the woman(Grace Kelly). Their history is one of the past even though they are still in love. The husband (Ray Milland) completes the love triangle, but he wants her dead. He hires a man to come and complete the perfect murder while he is safely at a party to give him an alibi. Unfortunately his perfect plan doesn't come off as he would have liked and the wife ends up killing the would be assassin. Then he is left with two problems. How to clean up the unplanned murder, and how to get rid of his wife! This is a great one for keeping you going all the way through the end! Although, strangely enough, I found myself on the side of the would be assassin as he tries to kill her... That was weird and might have been because I had just watched 10 hours of Hitchcock before then... Just a thought. Also as a side note, BYU is doing this as a stage performance next year! It should be fabulous! The director is amazing and nearly all of his things come off so well! So if you're going to be in the area, I would highly suggest making it a point to see that!

Whew! That was a lot of murder and lies and subtle sexuality for one day! It was fantastic though! I am so glad we did it and that I have finally gotten to watching several movies I have wanted to see for quite some time now!

09 April 2008

Juno! Juno! Juno!

Today was really quite fabulous! I had class this morning and it was way fun learning the Cha Cha! I never liked it before, but the one we learned today was awesome! Unfortunately I bit my tongue worse than I ever have before in the history of me biting tongues. I seriously was bleeding for several minutes and I just kept my mouth shut and thought "just don't bleed on anyone. Just don't bleed on anyone" because I really didn't want to miss out on dancing. That's so sad, but true. Anyway, I spent the afternoon not being particularly productive. I'm living in a state of flux and craziness. I need to start packing, but I also need to clean. Unfortunately I'm also stuck in the position of not wanting to put things away that I know I'm just going to get back out and pack again, so as a result nothing really gets done. It all just sort of moves from one area of the room to another.

Today I started a lot of things, but I hardly finished anything. I did, however, find out that Barbie clothes are impossible to find these days. I remember having a smorgasbord of Barbie everything! Now they have Cheetah Bratz or whatever they are and Hanna Montana Barbies. They even have High School Musical dolls. But seriously, to find just Ken clothes, or even a regular Ken doll, is practically impossible. It's really so sad, but why I was looking for Ken clothes is the subject for another blog altogether.

After wasting away my day, I went out with my cousin tonight! Hooray for Girls Night Out! I went and picked her up then we went to Cold Stone where I got a delicious concoction of chocolate, brownies, cherries, and whipped cream! It was delectable! I even got a larger size just so I would have more cold stuff to soothe my tongue. Then we went and saw Juno again! I saw it once before and I still LOVE this movie! There is such great writing and it is life as we all experience it. There isn't that much in the way of dramatizing things. Sure, it's a movie and we all know movies aren't real, but it doesn't glamorize the way things happen. It's real and fresh. Amazing! One to put in the personal collection on the 15th. (There's a hint if anyone is looking for something to get me for graduation!) Anyway, after a full and less than productive day, I'm going to bed. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually get something in my room done.

04 April 2008

The score of my life story!

I've done this quiz before, but in light of the 50GB of music that I've added since then I think it should be interesting to see the difference now. Woo!


So, here’s how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.)

2. Put it on shuffle

3. Press play

4. For every question, type the song that’s playing

5. When you go to a new question, press the "next" button

6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool!

Opening credits: "Christmas of Love" - How The Grinch Stole Christmas

Waking Up: "Material Girl" - Madonna

First Day At School: "Elevation" - U2

Falling In Love: "Where is the Life that Late I Led" - Kiss Me Kate (ha ha! Strange!)

Fight Song: "You've Got to Pick a Pocket or Two" - Oliver!

Breaking Up: "It's a Free World Baby" - R.E.M. (I don't think I've ever even listened to this one)

Prom: "Oi To The World" - No Doubt

Life’s OK: "Real Life" - tick, tick... BOOM!

Mental Breakdown: "A Very Nice Prince/First Midnight/Giants in the Sky" - Into the Woods

Driving: "Hips Don't Lie" - Shakira

Flashback: "Goodbye to the Circus" - Aqua (Whoa! There's a REAL flashback!)

Getting Back Together: "Another One Bites the Dust" - Queen

Wedding: "All My Loving" - The Beatles

Birth of Child: "7 Days to Change Your Life" - Jamie Cullum

Final Battle: "All the Way" - Frank Sinatra and Celine Dion

Death Scene: "Not Coming Home" - Maroon 5

Funeral Song: "Edelweiss" - The Sound of Music

End Credits: "The Girl I Mean to Be" - The Secret Garden

Well that was a strange mix... Good times though! I tag Lauren, Amy, and Brittany!

03 April 2008

Still Hurting

I know that it is totally normal to be hurt and react as such when you are broken up with, but I think that I have some problems with my post relationship grieving. I am pretty sure that I have never learned the proper way to get over someone because I seem to go about things all wrong and not only that, but once I think I'm getting over someone, I seem to have horrible relapses.

My problems seem to start with the actual break up. Thus far, when I've been broken up with it has been bad. It goes something like this: 1) I think everything is going great, until I can't get a hold of him anymore. Phone calls, text messages, emails, are all ignored. 2) I know something is wrong, and I try desperately to figure out what it is and how we can work through it. (This is where things start to vary a little bit) Variation 1-3) I go over to his apartment/leave multiple messages for him and find out that he is out with another girl! Variation 2-3) I'm out shopping and I finally get a text from him telling me he's dating another girl! (Now the scenarios go back together) I get a long winded text break up telling me that it just wouldn't work out between us anyway and I deserve better. Whatever helps you sleep at night. If he really cared so much he would have the guts to break up with me in person. And you're dang right! I do deserve better! 4) I apparently don't know when to stop torturing myself because instead of crying my eyes out and leaving him behind for fonder memories, I have a tendency to forgive and stay friends with the guys who do this to me! Seriously!!! I need help...

The reason for this tirade is that the unfortunate truth of the matter is that while I can be their friend and even go hang out with them, I guess part of me never really gets over the relationship and I keep a candle burning somewhere for them because when down the road they tell me that they are dating someone new or engaged or something like that, it tears me all up inside again. There is no good reason for this and as far as I can tell, I'm only hurting myself. I just don't know what to do about it or how to stop from doing this to myself again and again. I just stay in a constant state of pain or knowing that soon I'll find out from them something I don't want to know that will just make me as emotionally unstable and angry/jealous/grief stricken as I was when he first did it to me. Life can be really harsh sometimes, but I'm pretty sure that I'm the reason I'm still hurting.

Maybe I don't know how to let go, or I'm so afraid to let go of what I had that I keep holding the knife in my heart and I let it get twisted by the very person who put it there in the first place. Who knows. I really need to stop letting this go on. I need to get on with my life and accept that things happen and that I just need to move on! Somebody help me to do this! I'm tired of having a hurt heart...

01 April 2008

My ABC's

My cousin tagged me with this... well, let's just say it was a while ago and she just reminded me that I should do it! So here I go!

A - Attached or Single: Single
B - Best Friend: Jen and Jeff
C - Cake or Pie: I like them both, but at the moment I want neither.
D - Day of Choice: Any day that I am not committed to do anything in particular
E - Essential Item: Mascara or chap stick
F - Favorite Color: Green
G - Gummi Bears or Worms: Chocolate covered cinnamon bears! (I don't eat them any other way!)
H - Hometown: Salt Lake City, UT
I - Indulgence(s): Most things I do/eat!
J - January or July: July! I'm for sure a summer person!
K - Kids: Hopefully someday! I love the little monsters!
L - Life is Incomplete Without: Family and friends
M - Marriage Date: I'll let you know when I get one!
N - Number of Siblings: The best sister in the world!!!
O - Oranges or Apples: I like them both. If I didn't have to peel them though, oranges.
P- Phobias or Fears: Spiders and masks really. That's about it.
Q - Quote(s): I have 27 pages of type written quotes and you want me to pick one!? Ok, I'll try... "To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters. We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family grief’s and joys. We live outside the touch of time." Ciara Ortega
R - Reason to Smile: I didn't get hit by a car yesterday!
S - Season: SUMMER!!!
T - Tag Seven: Amy, Matt, Chris, Brittany, Anna, Alianna, and whoever else wants to!
U - Unknown Fact About Me: I'm pretty open about most everything. I guess an unknown fact about me is that I color coordinate my closet. Clothes by color, shade, length, and type; hangers by color and what is on them; shoes by color, shade, and heel height.
V - Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animal: I don't eat a lot of meat, but I wear a lot of leather!
W - Worst Habit: Don't really know. Being too much of a micro manager?
X - X-Rays or Ultrasounds: X-rays.
Y - Your Favorite Food: Spaghetti!
Z - Zodiac: Gemini.

Whew! Some of those were harder than you would think! Way fun though and it only took a few minutes!!! Cheers!

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