16 December 2008


Today I saw three people I've known my whole life (or practically my whole life) cry. It's not that I didn't think they had cried or could cry or even would cry, but it was a slightly strange thing for me to see. They have always been rock solid and to see them in such a state of vulnerability was a little hard for me. These people are my grandmother, my uncle, and my aunt. Now I don't cry for reasons of sadness in large groups of people as a matter of personal policy, but that being said, I did tear up a bit. (For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, my grandfather passed away last Thursday and I am in Seattle for his funeral.) It was very tender to see my grandfather's casket draped with an American flag and to see how many people loved him and would come to pay their respects to a great man. He was a Korean war veteran and an extremely great man. I may be biased because he was my grandfather, but the people who came are not and that was a testament to me of how much he was loved and how many people's lives he was able to touch. We had a chance to say our last goodbyes before everyone came so I was able to have my own special time with him to say what I needed to. The service was beautiful. So many things were said that I had not known and that really made me feel loved. He was a special person. Most of all, the eulogies given by my father and my uncle were beautiful. My uncle did the most touching thing I have ever seen him do and it really brought tears to my eyes. As a Vietnam veteran he was a fellow 'brother in arms' and as a final respect he saluted my grandfather's casket as he finished his eulogy. It was so tender. After the service, we all went to the graveside which was very nice (freezing, but nice). They gave a 21 gun salute and presented the colors to my grandmother. It was so wonderful how much care they took with the flag. They folded it beautifully and then to make the points as crisp as possible they held it in a way that was almost like hugging it. It really made it quite personal. I loved my grandpa a lot and I will miss him greatly. I am just glad to know he's in a better place with his twin brother and most of his family. As two older ladies said this afternoon, "Well, now those two yahoos are together again!" It's true and that's great. No pain or sadness for them and that makes me happy. I love you grandpa and I'll miss you.

11 December 2008

The Christmas Story

I'm pretty sure most everyone who reads my blog knows the first Christmas story. The one where Mary is going to have Jesus and where she and Joseph have to go to Bethlehem to pay a tax and there she has the son of God in a stable. Well if you didn't know it before, that's pretty much it in a nutshell. Well, while I was at school, I took some really cool classes (I like saying that like it was so long ago!) one of which was a marriage prep class. Before anyone jokes about it, it was a really great class! More of a relationship class, parts of which were just more centered on the relationship between a husband and wife. But I digress. One of the books we had to buy for the class is called Saving Your Marriage Before it Starts. It's a really cool book (even if you aren't planning on getting married anytime soon and there is a wonderful passage in it. It's actually in the part about getting used to living with each other and to adjust to things you can't control in a positive way, but I like to read it around Christmas time because it puts a new twist on what it must have been like for Mary and Joseph that Christmas and I would like to share it with you. (Sorry it's a little long, but it's good!)

"Can you imagine for a moment how the Christmas story might have been written if Mary and Joseph had not had the capacity to adjust to things beyond their control? To begin with, Joseph had to adjust to the fact that Mary, his fiancee, was pregnant. According to Old Testament law, he could have had her stoned or sent her into some large distant city like Rome, Carthage, or Ephesus. Before he could break with her, however, God sent an angel to tell Joseph that Mary was with child by the Holy Spirit and would give birth to a Son whose name would be Jesus. So instead of sending Mary away, Joseph married her.

"While the first year of marriage is always difficult, Mary and Joseph faced a unique set of challenges. Nine months of pregnancy require enormous adjustments from a couple, regardless of how long they've been married-and this was no run-of-the-mill pregnancy. On top of dealing with the implications of the impending birth, Mary and Joseph were trying to establish their home, run a business, and learn how to live with each other seven days a week. Further, they were forced to close down their business and travel to Bethlehem as the first step of a Roman plan to raise taxes. Just what they needed!

"Early one morning Mary and Joseph left their honeymoon abode behind them as they went out of the gate of Nazareth en route to Bethlehem. She was riding on the back of a little burro. (No easy ride. Some women can hardly ride in a Buick while they are waiting for the birth of a child, let alone on the back of a donkey!) Joseph had a short tether wrapped around his arm and anchored securely in his big fist to keep the little burro from dislodging Mary, who was more than eight months pregnant. At night they did not stop in a rooming house or a motel as people might today. They stopped along the road, cooked with makeshift arrangements, slept on the hard ground, and made the best of a difficult situation.

"Finally, when they arrived within sight of the city of Bethlehem, Mary stopped. She could not go another step. We can imagine her looking up at her husband and saying something like, "Joe, I cannot take another step. I am going to sit down here under this olive tree, and I want you to go into the city of Bethlehem and get us a room in the Bethlehem Hilton. I would like one in the front if possible so I can watch the crowds go up and down, and I will get room service and wait out the time for the baby to come."

"Mary was a long way from home, worn out, tired, emotionally drained, and at the end of her rope. Furthermore, she must have wondered what she would do if her labor pains began and Joseph was not near. After all, her baby was almost due. Her anxiety level must have risen as she waited, watched, and eagerly scanned the highway for the familiar figure of Joseph. The teeming crowds moving along the highway paid her no attention.

"Finally Joseph returned, his characteristic smile gone, his shoulders drooping. She listened as he told her his story: "Mary, I went to the hotel, but there was no room. It's filled with convention people. In fact, I went up and down the main street to every hotel and there are no rooms. Finally, I persuaded an old man to let us stay in the barn with his animals. He's charging an exorbitant price, Mary, but he promised me he would clean out the manure and cover the floor with fresh straw. And most of all, Mary, he said we could be alone, he would not make us share the stall with any other couple."

"Their hearts heavy, Mary and Joseph made their way to the stable, thankful at least for a shelter from the cold wind.

"That night the Son of God was born.

"Can you imagine how the Christmas story might have been written if Mary and Joseph had not had the capacity to adjust to things beyond their control?"

No matter what else this season means to us, let's all remember to try and be a little bit kinder and a little more adaptable this Christmas season. Merry Christmas to you all!

26 November 2008


For those of you out there who are going to get angry or offended if you read anything about this movie before you see it for yourself consider yourself warned and STOP READING NOW!  I take no responsibility for "ruining" your experience if you choose to ignore my warning.

That being said, I liked the movie more than I thought I would.  It wasn't the best movie ever, but it was better than I think lots of people are giving it credit for.  It was extremely cheesy, the effects weren't very good, and overall Meyer's writing doesn't translate very well into film, but somehow I still came out of the theatre glad that I went.  I had a really good time.  Most of that was probably due to the GREAT company I had! (Thanks Amy for getting me out of the office for a fun night! I always have fun with you even when we're arguing about freeway exits like an old married couple!)  I was surprised at how I actually ended up liking the characters better than I'd thought I would.  In the previews I really, really didn't like who they had chosen for Bella or Edward, but they were not completely bad.  I thought that the most distracting part of it all was the way the special effects were done.  None of it was particularly believable.  The fast running, the tree climbing, the jumping.  It all looked so fake to me!  It actually really bothered me.  Also, while I thought better of the actors playing Bella and Edward by the end of the film, I liked Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie less. :(  It all seemed like it was rushed through too.  Of course it had to be because Meyer actually writes a lot and it's mostly the characters thoughts or big monologues that wouldn't really work for a film.  The feel of the movie seemed right though.  It's not meant to be something that you want to go to for learning purposes, but for entertainment purposes.  Also, It had some of the most wonderful, snarky (Yes, it's a real word. Look it up.) one liners that just made me laugh!  I seriously enjoyed some of the lines so very much.  The writing wasn't very good for the most part, but it made me quite happy at times, so that helped even it out.  Overall, I really enjoyed it quite a lot!  It was really great times for all involved I think!  For those of you interested in some extra entertainment, here is a film critique/FUNNY rewrite of the screenplay, here is a link you should go to.  Anyway, here you have my humble opinion of the film.  Enjoy!


23 November 2008


I went through my cell phone tonight.  I deleted over 100 contacts who I almost never talk to.  At least on the phone.  If that is you and you call or text me, well I will probably not know who you are.  For this, I'm sorry.  If you have my number, we don't usually talk by phone, and you think I should have your number then send it to me.  If you don't have my number and you want mine, well, email me and we'll talk about it.  Anyway, I just wanted to clear that up.  Have a great night everyone!


I work in Salt Lake City, downtown.  There are loads of interesting people who live/work/hang out by my office and I see a lot of them on a fairly regular basis.  Some of them are not the kind of people I think I'd like to meet on a dark night, but they're cool in their own way.  Recently though, I've been thinking about a couple of them and I've been rather touched. 

One of them is a man who has more self pride and work ethic than most people I know.  He obviously has some problems.  Physically his body isn't as good as most people and I'd be willing to bet by the way he acts that there are some mental things going on as well, but every day I see him pushing a wagon or driving a tractor around selling something or doing some kind of work.  I really admire him for that too because he could easily sit around and let someone else take care of him, but instead he takes the initiative to get out there and do something with his life.  I think to myself that it has to be so much harder for him to do what he does then it would be for me, but he has more pride then to just sit around and do nothing.  I think it's amazing that he's always out there doing something to make the world a bit more beautiful.  He inspires me because of what he does in spite of his challenges.  He always seems to do it with a good attitude too!

The other man who is inspiring to me is a man I've never met, but who seems to exemplify the meaning of Christ like love.  I first saw him a long time ago and at first I was shocked and, truthfully, a bit frightened.  I saw a man carrying a baby and as he ran across the crosswalk this baby was shaking in his arms, at times looking like it was going to fall violently to the ground!  I was worried for the safety of the child, but as I watched him day after day, I realized that it wasn't a live baby he was carrying.  It was a doll.  Now this may seem a bit weird at first but he shows such love to this baby.  He always makes sure it is dressed properly for the weather, and he always has it with him.  In the winter, the baby has on a coat and sometimes little boots, while in the summer it has a hat on to shield it from the sun.  It is really quite tender how he treats the child that isn't even alive.  Sometimes I wonder if he lost a child or if he has some serious mental issues going on.  I've heard some people say he's just creepy.  A grown man with a baby doll?  Well I guess it's possible, but I just can't believe it with the tender, loving way he treats this baby.  He truly seems like one of the sweet spirits that has been put on the earth to teach us understanding and love toward others.

I know that these are probably not the people that most of us see everyday, not to mention the ones we aspire to be more like.  Most people probably don't even see them as they are walking down the street, but even though I may never meet them, I probably won't be able to thank them, and they will most likely never know what a great impact they have made on my life, I am truly grateful for their examples to me.  I hope that we will all take more time and think about the people we don't normally see.  Try to be more like them and most of all, think of those people who need us most and who we need in return.  They can all be really inspiring if we give them a chance to touch our lives for good.

26 October 2008

October = Crazy

My life is crazy, but so good right now!  I'm working at a haunted house, the Castle of Chaos, as a makeup artist and it's so much fun!  It's insane at times and I have pretty much no life outside of that and my work at the office, but I haven't posted anything in a while so I thought I'd put up a little something for all of my faithful readers. :)  It's a blast!  I get there, put 75 to 100 people up in makeup to scare the living daylights out of people (I DON'T go in the haunt.  Not ever.  Except for the one time that I did...  I hate being scared.), then I get to play!  I have a friend who is also a makeup artist there who is a professional photographer as well and he does my makeup and uses me as a model for some Halloween shoots he's putting together.  We also let people get their pictures taken with me for a donation to the Boys and Girls Club.  It's for a good cause.  Anyway, I'm off to try and clean a bit or do something productive now.  So goodbye again until November.  Oh, also most importantly, I'm dating an absolutely wonderful man!  He's amazing and he makes me extremely happy!  We met at the haunted house and became friends then, as they say, the rest is history!  So you should all come see me at work as this is the last week of the season.  Fun times all around!  If you're into that kind of thing.

Here are some pictures of the modeling work I've been doing.  Just for fun!


witch 1 


Sexy mummy


vamp 3



27 September 2008

Skydiving Baby!

It's true! Today I jumped out of a perfectly good airplane on purpose and I loved it! It was one of the most exhilarating experiences I've ever had! I can think of no words to describe it, but it was fantastic! I won't lie and say that for the last couple of weeks I haven't been nervous about the whole thing, but I dealt with it by living in a world of denial. I found it easier to just pretend that I wasn't actually going to do it so when today came around, I wasn't really that nervous! I did wake up at about 5.30 though and going back to sleep was out of the question, so at 6 I got up and ready and we were on our way by 7. We got there right about 8 am and had a brief training then they had us sign away our life (quite literately) and we suited up! My main worry was that I wouldn't be strapped into my harnesses correctly, but my expert tandem master Alec, was very careful to make sure I was totally secure and therefore, safe (as safe as one can be jumping from a plane at 13000 feet that is!). Keeping in mind that in my delusion world I had no real plan to jump out of a moving plane, we took some pictures, got on bored and took off! It took about 15 minutes to get to altitude, then we started to go. There was one group doing something in front of me (I really wasn't paying that much attention to them) then it was my turn. We scooted up to the gaping hole in the side of the plane and I scooted my toes just off of the edge of the silver platform, as I was specifically instructed to do, and I had about 1.5 seconds of total fear as I looked at the ground and thought, 'What have I gotten myself into?' then we were out the door and falling/flying through the air! It didn't feel at all like falling even ! I completely loved it! The free fall was incredible and the parachute gliding was one of the best experiences of my life! He pulled the parachute open and it was so calm! I was on a total adrenaline rush, but there was no sound or anything. Just Alec and me floating in space! I got to hold onto the canopy for a few seconds and then Alec spun us and we coasted to the ground! It was amazing! I didn't even know until the last few seconds how close we were to the ground so it wasn't scary or anything. I will definitely be going again sometime! What a fantastic experience! Here are some pictures, if you want to see more, email me or look on facebook.

Strapping into the harness


Alec and me before the jump


Boarding the airplane


Skydiving is amazing! YEAH!


After the landing. It was a total rush! So worth it!


24 September 2008


I don't do politics. Actually, it's not so much that I don't do it, I just DO NOT talk about politics. I find it a very defensive and unpleasant experience for me to talk about politics. I don't so much mind knowing how other people feel about different aspects of political arguments or whatever you want to call them as long as they aren't forceful about it or try to convince me that my opinions and feelings are wrong. Also, if you haven't noticed, I haven't said anything about the upcoming elections. I just want to say that I do care and I do have an idea about what's going on. I am not stupid or uninformed. I haven't been very involved in past years, so that was a different situation, but now I just choose not to talk about any of that. It makes most people get upset or agitated, it just makes me an angry person and I don't want to be that way. Everyone has an opinion about this and most everyone has made these opinions known to me so I will say one thing only about the upcoming election then I won't ever blog about it again. I think that there is no such thing as a perfect candidate. There are, however, several issues that for me are deal breakers. So while I have chosen the candidate that has most of the same ideals that I choose to stand for, it really comes down to one thing. I will not get behind a candidate who will not get behind his country. Period.

19 September 2008

Life as a Designer

It's so sad, but I just tried to watch my senior project, Berlin, and I didn't get more then 10 seconds into it before I had to turn it off.  Now I know why so many people in the entertainment industry don't watch their own work.  It's a very uncomfortable feeling to see your work because it shows you all the imperfections only you see.  Everyone else thinks it's great, but it makes me feel so vulnerable when I see my work where everyone can see it.  At least I think it's good.

cast and crew

16 September 2008



So this morning I get a phone call from my friend that she got tickets to see Cats tonight and would I like to go?  OF COURSE!  It's not my favorite show, but it is my sister's favorite show.  So my amazing, awesome, phenomenal friend gets her a ticket too!  It was a pretty great show.  They had some parts added that I don't think were in the original show, but I've only ever seen the movie, so I'm not really sure about what is in the original play and what isn't.  Never the less, it was a great production.  I've always seen myself as the Egyptian cat Cassandra.  It's fun to look at the different cats and see who you know that is like them! 

All in all, it was a fun show and the company was great! Also, I got to see another great friend by accident in the parking garage afterward!  Hooray!


I'm a bit perturbed.  I forgot to mention it, but at the fair there was a booth set up by a funeral home and they had a casket there and when I asked them if I could get in it and take a picture, they said no!  Now I would have understood if they had said it was disrespectful (which it kind of is), or if they had said that they didn't want to get it dirty (I offered to take off my shoes before I got in!), but the answer they gave me was so ridiculous that I had to stop and pause to take it in.  They said it was illegal because once a body has been in it, it's contaminated and therefore no longer suitable to have anyone else in.  Seriously!?  What if I wanted to try it out before I bought it?  I don't want some uncomfortable coffin for my body!  I am a firm believer in try before you buy!  Honestly though, is someone out there really worried that I'm going to transfer my LIVE germs to a DEAD person?  I ask you, all creepiness aside, does that make any sense to anyone else?  I realize that many (most?) of you may think I'm slightly weird or morbid for even thinking about getting in a coffin, but it's not like I was going to close it or that there had been a body in it before!  I just thought that it would be funny being that it's just before Halloween.  Now I just think the people making the laws have WAY too much time on their hands!  If they are making up laws that won't let you get into a coffin because you might contaminate it for the future user/occupant there is something really wrong with that situation.  I'd post a picture on here, but they wouldn't let me take one.  SO LAME!!!  That's all.

15 September 2008

Random Quirks

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* List 6 of your quirks
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Jenny tagged this to anyone who wanted to do it and since blogging is so much better then sleeping (what I really should be doing to get over a cold) I'm going to do it and leave it open to all of my friends and family!  If you should do it though, please let me know so I can read up on the weird things about you!

1)When I'm eating a lot of things on one plate I absolutely can't stand to have them touch! The items of food themselves, the juices, or any of it! I think that sectioned plates may very well be the greatest invention ever. Ok, maybe not ever, but definitely the greatest since the fork!

2)I organize my closet first by the color of the item, then by hue and the length of the piece, finally by the material. I then hang them on hangers which are organized by color and categorized by what is on them. Also do my shoes (if possible in the original box) by color, heel height, and occasion.

3) I love old names! I think that my favorite names ever are Charlotte, Isabella, Edward, and Richard (also 3 of those are family names).

4) I'm totally freaked out of spiders, but if I see one running along my floor I get very possessive of my space and I will kill the spider with a vengeance and then put something over it because I'm too scared to pick up the carcass and flush/trash it!

5) I collect quotes.  I have probably about 75 pages of typewritten, single spaced quotes and about half of them are organized into categories.  I'd like to publish them in a book form someday, but I have no idea who to go to or how to get permission to do something like that.

6) I love the smell of old books.  Not the mildew smell of a book that has been poorly cared for, but the smell that says it's been somewhere, read often, and it has a history.  I don't know how to explain it, but if you love the smell of old books, you know what I mean.

14 September 2008

Fairs are Fun!

Until you've been working at one for 11 days straight.  Now I'm not saying that I have the worst job ever, not by a long shot, but I just did 14 days straight both getting ready and then working for my dad at the fair.  I don't even know what all was at the fair unless it was between our booth and the food court.  I. Am. Tired.  I'm tired, and my whole body hurts, and I've managed to finally catch the cold that everyone else was passing around our team, but there were definitely some great things about working that much.  1) As material as it is, the paycheck isn't going to be bad.  I know when I get it, I'll be most pleased!  2) The people who come to the fair are super... Well, some of them are very... interesting!  It was so fun to people watch then swap stories with the other people I was working with!  (If you are interested in hearing some of these stories, email or call me and I'll be glad to share some with you!)  3) I got a free magnetic bracelet!  I was talking to the people selling them and they told me to try it and if I liked it by the end of the fair, I could keep it.  If not, I could bring it back.  When I was talking to them at the end, one of the ladies working there told me to just keep it!  SWEET!  I still haven't decided if it totally works, but I think it helped me get rid of a headache the other day, so I'll keep trying it for now.  4) There were some supremely awkward experiences which, at the time kind of sucked, but those are the ones that make for the BEST stories later!  Like the 4o+ year old guy who asked for my number, or the guy who was selling the salsa maker (also old enough to be my father, by the way) who told me me this afternoon that we should run off together and get married, then backpack through Europe for the rest of our lives.  Seriously, do I look like the backpacking type?  Also, no.  I will not run off and marry you, you're weird.  What's with the old men who try to pick up on me?  That's just not cool.  5) Last, but certainly not least, my friends!  I had some amazing friends who came to see me and some others who didn't even know I was going to be there that I happened to meet up with!  It was great to see everyone!  One last thing I just want to throw out there, I know that everyone has stuff that comes up on occasion, but personally I don't think it's acceptable to be late for your shift consistently.  Especially if it's 30 minutes at least and there isn't even a phone call.  I think it's irritating.  Overall, I think it was not a totally bad experience and I learned a lot for future use!  In other news, I finally got my new bed in my room and totally set up!  It's so nice and big and beautiful!  I'm so happy to have it out of the garage and in use!  I love it completely and thankfully I have yet to stub my toe on it or ram into it while running into my room!  :)


26 August 2008


Reading is my passion.  It is one thing I can do by myself and it makes me happy, so here's the deal.  Apparently the BBC has sponsored a reading list of the 100 books you should read and they say the average adult (which I've never thought much of the average adult anyway, they seem relatively unimpressive) has only read 6 of the books on this list so:

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you love.
4) Place an asterisk (*) by those you've seen a movie or stage performance of. (If there are multiple *, I've seen both a film and a stage adaptation.)
5) Reprint this list in your own blog so we can try and track down these people who’ve only read 6 and force books upon them.

1. The Lord of the Rings*, J.R.R. Tolkien
2. Pride and Prejudice**, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire*, JK Rowling
6. To Kill a Mockingbird**, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh*, AA Milne
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe**, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. Little Women**, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind*, Margaret Mitchell
22. Harry Potter And The Philosopher’s Stone*, JK Rowling (This is known as "The Sorcerer's Stone in the U.S.)
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets*, JK Rowling
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban*, JK Rowling
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D’Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland*, Lewis Carroll
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory*, Roald Dahl
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen (I've read the first few chapters about 12 times, but I've never been able to get through it... Yet!)
41. Anne Of Green Gables*, LM Montgomery
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count of Monte Cristo*, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol**, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The Secret Garden**, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men*, John Steinbeck
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. A Tale of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda*, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones’s Diary*, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes**, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm*, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries*, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight’s Children, Salman Rushdie

Well, I've read 17 of them which is not nearly as good as I would have thought for myself given how much I actually do read.  I guess I just have read things that aren't good enough to make it onto the BBC's 100 books to read list.  I have seen productions of a lot more though, so I guess that counts for something.  I still should probably get on that situation.  There are many still waiting for me to read them and I'm wasting time on my blog!  Heaven forbid!

22 August 2008


Home is where the heart is. I've heard this saying my whole life, but now I think I look at it in a whole new way. For those of you who missed my last blog, I had some kind of bad experiences this weekend and I was quite angry when I took to writing down my feelings. I hurt some people and I'm sorry, but more than that, it made me realize what I'd done to them is the same thing that hurt me so much all through school when friends and roommates would trash on Utah. I would always say something like 'Well you chose to be here and so many people would give everything to trade you spots if they could so shut up and take it for a few years then leave. Be my guest!' I could pretend I had a tough skin and that it didn't bother me, but it really did. It always has because Utah - Salt Lake City to be specific - is my home. I love it here and I will defend it to the death. Everywhere you go there are some amazing things and some not so great things. Sure, we have our less than perfect things here too. I won't pretend we don't. Our streets are often torn up, the winters seem to last way too long, and yes, everyone seems to be Mormon, but it's kind of like if you're a Mormon, you can make Mormon jokes, if not you should probably not do so. If you're not from Utah, it's probably best not to make those from here feel badly because it's their home and despite its flaws, we love it. Home isn't necessarily where you live, but where you love. I think you can have more than one home because for me Salt Lake City is home and in a strange way, London is home. Home can be anywhere from a huge city to a tiny town in the middle of nowhere. It doesn't matter as long as you have people and things you cherish there. The most important things to you. Anyway, I am going to make a much more concentrated effort to be more aware of what I say from now on. I understand better how other people feel being here and I hope this helps you understand better how I feel about my home. Please be respectful of it and I promise I will be more conscientious when I am upset about something to treat the situation as I would want it to be treated for me were the roles reversed.

05 August 2008

My 5

Amy tagged me with this and it's been a while since I did one of these so I figured it seemed fun enough!

10 years ago...1998
Ten years ago I was going into 8th grade.  I was awkward as any other barely teenager... Well, maybe more so.  I was pretty awkward. 
5 years ago...2003
I had just graduated from Cottonwood High and was thinking I was pretty cool!  I was off to BYU in the fall and had no idea what the next few years of my life would lead to.  I was blissfully unaware!
5 months ago...March
I was in the final stretch of my senior project.  I was so ready for it to be done and to graduate and to get out of school!  Also, I was getting ready for my last University ballroom competition!  It was the best one ever, so it was totally worth it, but can we say stressful!
5 things on my to do list tomorrow...
1) Work at the county fair, 2) go to the gym, 3) make some phone calls, 4) clean my room, 5) sleep.
5 things I would do if I was suddenly a billionaire...
1) Buy a house, 2) pay off my student loans, 3) travel!!! 4) invest in something good, 5) put money away for the future
5 bad habits...
1) I rarely clean my room... very well that is.  2) I tend to over dramatize things.  3) I overbook myself regularly.  4) I spend too much time procrastinating.  5) I don't stay in touch with people like I should.
5 places I've lived
1) Some apartment in Salt Lake City when I was a baby, 2) Sugarhouse, 3) Holladay, 4) Provo, 5) London

I had fun with this and it didn't take too long, so I tag Lauren, Jessica, Rachel, Brittany, and anyone else who wants to do it!

03 August 2008

Day of the living dead

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So I'm pretty sure I'm dead... Or dying... Or in a sleep deprived stupor running on nothing but a medium Dr. Pepper left over from my Wendy's run last night, a rebound, and a recently consumed granola bar.  Most likely the last option.  I kind of feel like I'm floating outside of the realm of my body and for all this, I have only myself to blame.  I was going to go to the midnight release party for Breaking Dawn on Friday night, but unfortunate circumstances made it necessary to instead get my highly anticipated book Saturday afternoon instead.  I was disappointed Friday night, and then extremely keyed up all morning Saturday (to say the least!) while I waited impatiently to get the opportunity of purchasing my most recently coveted item.  I sat patiently through a baby shower for my old roommate playing games of match-the-candy-to-the-pregnancy-term (Can we say awkward?  I'm not sure that I really ever wanted to compare licorice to an umbilical cord.), fill in the blank for the nursery rhyme, and watching the endless supply of onesies and receiving blankets in all shades of pink as she s-l-o-w-l-y opened everything and all the other women cooed over it.  At least that's how it seemed at the time when I really wanted my book.  Enough of the pre-book play-by-play though, as I drove home from Provo, I made arrangements to go to Costco immediately upon my return and purchase the book.  This was easily accomplished since it was a pretty good bet that once I got the book I would disappear and not bother anyone for the rest of the day.  As I predicted, this was indeed the case.  I changed into my sweat pants and my 'Team Edward' tee shirt and hunkered down to read for the day.  I read from straight until I had to take a break for a wedding reception.  This could have been torture, but it was uncharacteristically (and slightly unsettlingly) easy for me to put it down.  I was even able to go to a welcome home party for one of my friends!  No problems!  It was slightly surreal but I guess it was good to get away from it after 5+ hours straight of reading.  When I headed home, I decided to make a Wendy's run because 1) I was kind of craving fries, and 2) I figured if I was going to make it through the book before I went to sleep I was going to need a caffeine supply.  Upon my arrival back home, I changed back into my reading uniform and sat down with my fries and Dr. Pepper to finish the book.  Which I did, but only an hour before I was to get up for church.  Bah!  If I'm being generous I would say that I got maybe 40 minutes of sleep last night.  I'd say it was worth it though.  I will not reveal any of the plot line, but as of this moment, sadly, Breaking Dawn was not my favorite book of the series.  I'll grant that I read it in only 11 1/2 hours so I need to reread it before I can make a full analysis of it though.   All I will say is that that the rumors circulating about it (at least the ones I came across) are not true, so don't worry too much about what you might hear.  Anyway, this has turned into a ridiculously long blog that's more rambling than anything else, but I'm sure I'll laugh later when I go through and read it.

20 July 2008

Dog days of summer

So due to the fact that this summer has been way more busy then I had anticipated it being also that crazy things have come up on a regular basis, I haven't been blogging as often as I normally would have, so this is sort of a catch up on the last little while.

The Fourth of July was awesome! My family had a small BBQ then we went fireworks shopping with my uncle. For those of you who don't know my father and my uncle, when they get together two things happen. 1) They go crazy. This in and of itself should be enough to give you a good idea of how the firework shopping went, but then comes 2) They always end up spending way more money then they should. Translation: we came home with a car that had been converted into an arsenal. We spent the rest of the day lounging at a local park listening to a band and some singing group doing oldies music. This wouldn't be so bad if one of the ladies in the group was flat the whole time. I tried to sleep through that part. The fireworks weren't too bad either! I was pretty impressed actually. For what I had anticipated it was great!

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That weekend we had Tyler, Katie, and Peyton over for a BBQ. It was ridiculously funny watching an 18 month old trying to run on a trampoline! She's the most wonderful, perfect baby and she's getting a new sister this week! Hooray! I'm excited for that too!

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The next weekend was pretty fun too! We had my cousins Aaron and Lauren over for a BBQ (I know, we have a lot of BBQ's) and we were the ones to get a little bit crazy! Lauren and I had great fun making ourselves electrically charged on the trampoline and getting crazy hair!

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Lastly, I went to a Mary Kay demonstration/sales thing and we had a blast! It was interesting getting makeup tips from someone who hasn't studied it nearly as much as I have and who really just says things to try and get you to buy her products, but oh well! It was fun anyway!

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Before (don't we look lovely!?)

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After with the kitten who was playing in my purse during the demonstration!

So really, July has had a lot of fun things going on! I have great family and friends who keep me busy and having an amazing time! Maybe being an adult isn't so bad after all! (Thanks again to Amy for the makeup pics!)

Oh, and as a side note, I'm pathetic. I finished Stephanie Meyer's book The Host in 24 hours. It's 616 pages long and I read it all in one day... So sad... In my defense I was sick so I had nothing better to do then sit in bed and read. Whatever, you just wish you read that fast! :)

03 July 2008

Honest to blog!?

So I was sitting here this evening thinking to myself, 'why doesn't anyone have any new blogs up? This is so annoying!' Then I actually realized that I haven't posted anything new in a while so really, it should be me putting up something amusing and introspective for everyone else to read... Actually, I don't really mean that, I still want everyone else to do it so I can read things, it just occurred to me that if I'm sitting here wishing everyone else would do it, I probably should too. I digress... Not too much has happened lately that has been really out of the ordinary. I go to work, go to my Zumba class (which we played hooky from tonight because there is a substitute who we don't like very much), and hang out with my friends. I live a pretty chill life!

Last weekend I got to go to one of my favorite shows of all time though! I went with a group of friends and we saw The Drowsy Chaperone! It was awesome!! Not as good as it was when I saw it in London last year but really now, what can actually compete with seeing a show in London? For me, not much. It was made ever so much better though because I was there with some of my best friends! I wish all of you could have been there, but I understand that circumstances do not allow for that all the time. It was hysterical! We laughed and cried (well, not so much of the crying part) and got great cold stone ice cream afterward! Yum! Good times!


Last night I had the pleasure of seeing WALL-E. It was fantastic!!! I loved the story line which was SO cute! The characters were so loveable! Even WALL-E's 'pet' was cute...ish! The best part was probably that most of the movie was done without dialogue! It just shows how universal emotion is! They didn't have to speak and the whole time you never had to guess what was happening. It was extremely well done! For those of you who have seen it, my favorite part was probably the 'Put On Your Sunday Shoes..." with his hat part! LOVED it! WALL-E was such a loveable character for me! Before hand, my friend Mike and I went to sushi at Tsunami! It was really quite good! I would highly recommend it! (The company couldn't have been better either!)


Well, that's about it! My life has been pretty uneventful the last little while! Now I'm sitting in the bathroom because it is the coolest place in the house and after I overheated myself in my car earlier, I really need to cool down. Ok, now that I've written a blog everyone had better start doing something to entertain me! Yeah, I mean you out there! Just kidding! I love you all! XOXOXO

17 June 2008

Seattle, Rain or Shine!

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So, I've kind of been slacking and I was going to write a blog about my Seattle trip all last week but alas, I never did.  So I shall do it now!

I went on a business trip two weekends ago with my father, one of his associate doctors, and the CA from his office.  We left on Friday afternoon and got there that evening.  We all had dinner that night with my grandparents.  That was a crazy hilarious dinner!!!  Carol and I absolutely could hardly keep from laughing the whole time! 

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That night when we finally got to our hotel there was a fabulous discovery!  We had sleep number beds which weren't the most comfortable beds in the world, but it made for several hours of entertainment during our stay there!  Ok, so apparently we're only 5 years old!

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Saturday was pretty much meetings during the day and I got to go out with my good friend Matt that night!  It was a blast!  He took me to a great Vietnamese restaurant which has, very possibly, the best name I've ever seen!  For those of you who don't speak Vietnamese there is a dish called phu (except that the 'u' has a little swish over it) and it's pronounced fa.  Anyway, this is a picture of the restaurant.

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Unfortunately I forgot my camera, so I didn't get a lot of pictures from that night, but I did have my phone so I got a couple with that.  We went back and he showed me his apartment and I got to see his sweet puppy Luke!  He's such a great dog!  After that, I got to see where Matt works.  It's a great studio type place that is on Microsoft campus.  It has some crazy computers with an amazing amount of cables and some HUGE batteries! 

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It was a blast!  I had such a great time!

Sunday was pretty chill.  We went to some meetings then we went and played in Seattle all day.  We went to Pike market and browsed the little shops there.  We also saw them throwing fish at the fresh market and a couple of crazy street performers fighting over their 'turf'.  It was pretty entertaining! 

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It got nice and sunny so we decided to go on a ferry boat ride.  It was quite lovely and we even got to see Mount Rainier.  Pretty cool! 

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We got over to the airport with very little craziness!  Of course, with the given group a little bit of craziness is always present, but given that is par for the course, it was relatively tame!  Overall, it was a very fun trip and it was so great to see family and friends that I haven't seen in ages!  Good times!

14 June 2008


So I found a new blog theme that I want to change to, but I can't figure out how to make it work!  Someone who is good with computers should come teach me how to do it (aka, do it for me).  No really, I would like to know how to make it work, but unfortunately I'm just getting frustrated with the project, so I'm going to bed effective, now.


On a different note, I saw Kung Fu Panda tonight and it was great!  To be more specific, Amy and I went to dinner at Pier 49 pizza, dessert at Red Mango (Delectable!), and then after burning some time looking at pictures, we saw Kung Fu Panda.  Either way it was a great movie and I think a good time was had by all!  I give it two enthusiastic  thumbs up!  Skedoosh!


04 June 2008

Indiana Jones!

Warning!!! This blog may (does) contain spoilers!!!!!
Well there has been quite the controversy about the new Indiana Jones movie. Personally, I quite enjoyed it! It has the same feel as the other movies in the series, the main difference is that instead of having people as the main group Indiana deals with, it's a group of aliens. That's the biggest difference and while it was a little bit out there, I think it went over well. There also is an additional twist that (drum roll please!) Indie is a daddy!!! It was a great twist that really made an interesting new story line! I was also really impressed that Harrison Ford did most of his own stunts and that he fit into his old costumes! Hooray for him! Kudos to Ford for keeping it together all of these years! I got a little scared at the end of the movie when Mutt (Indiana's son) looked like he was going to follow in his father's footsteps, but luckily we avoided a Star Wars travesty. Seriously, can we avoid the stories that never end please? That's all, it was a great movie and I think it's right up there with the others! Good times all around!

So much happening, so little time!

I was meaning to write this post all of last week, but I was sick and trying to run my family's office while my parents were on their anniversary trip in Acapulco so it just didn't happen.  The last 10 days have been crazy busy though! 

First, I'm going to go back a bit.  A week further to be exact!  Whitney had her birthday party which was a fantastic time!  It was a Hollywood themMay 2008 020e party and along with Lucy, Shakespeare In Love,  Indiana Jones, and Tom, Katie, and Suri there was a full house!  I'll give three guesses as to who I went as!  It was totally a blast!  I have to give kudos to the group who came as Tom, Katie, and Suri!  That was a total hit!

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Now on to this last week or so!  I spent last Saturday costuming the Cottonwood High School Alumni production of The Good Doctor by Neil Simon.  It turned out so great, but it was pretty much exhausting because it took all day working on it and running around getting things done!  Whew!  I won't lie, I was very glad when that was done!

Monday dawned a chilly, rainy morning.  It was Memorial day in every way except for the great weather we're used to.  None the less, my cousin and I forged onward and went up to Centerville to find our great-great-something grandmother's grave!  I've kind of had a hard time when people say 'I feel such a connection with such-and-such relative', but I can honestly say that while I've never met my grandma Charlotte in this world, she is a constant presence in my life.  I like to think of her as my guardian angel!  So it was pretty exciting for me to go out and find her, even if it was combing the cemetery in the rain and getting my shoes totally soaked through.  May 2008 045

When we came back, we had an indoor BBQ picnic and I went to the Death Cab for Cutie concert!  It was a great concert!  Liz was great enough to be able to come on such short notice and it was great that she was there because I may have lost my mind waiting for it to start!  We got there at about 4.45 because the concert was supposed to start at 5.  Well, by 6.45 they let us start going in to get our seats.  The line that May 2008 064we stood in for 2 + hours was... well, colorful to say the least!  It was a massively long line and we were right behind the crazy group!  The concert was great, but honestly the opening band Tegan and Sarah were better.  They totally played to the audience and it was great!

So that's pretty much what I've been up to lately!  It's been great and I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to get it all up here! And for those of you out there who actually read this regularly I'll try to be better about it in the future and I'll try not to get sick anymore!

15 May 2008


It is so much fun!  It is a crazy awesome dance workout and I loved it completely!  I went tonight with my friend Amy who introduced me to it.  I was (still am slightly) worried that I will be insanely sore tomorrow, but that story will wait until morning to be told!  It is a mixture of Latin dance and aerobics and... other stuff.  I'm not really sure.  It's a ball though!  I would recommend it to any and everyone who wants to have fun getting in shape!!!  Just in fair warning though, it WILL make you sweat!  If an intensive cardio workout isn't your thing then Zumba isn't for you!  Happy exercising!

12 May 2008

Mothers Day!

I love my mamma!  I just wanted to say that I love her so much!  I'm so glad she brought me into the world (though I'm sure she sometimes wanted to take me out of it!) and that she raised me the way she did!  I'm so thankful she was always such a great example to me and that she took me to church and helped me to grow my faith!  I'm also very thankful that she would always forgive me no matter what I'd done.  She loved me no matter how badly I messed up and I've made my fair share of bad mistakes.  I also wanted to thank all of my other 'mothers' who helped me become the person I'm growing into!  All of my sweet mothers from church and school who have taught me correct principles no matter what it applies to!  I love you all so very, very much!  You know who you are and if you aren't sure then consider yourself loved anyway!  Happy Mothers Day to all of the fabulous mothers out there!  Especially the ones who have new babies or will soon!  I sure love you all!  XOXOXO

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I didn't love this movie.  It was a funny movie in certain places, but I just wasn't so much in the mood for what it had to offer me today so I think that may have some influence on how I felt about it.  I won't be watching it again anytime soon, if ever again.

On a positive note, the editor was a woman which made me happy!  You don't see that nearly as often so it was kind of a treat!

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At long last I'm starting to get paid for the film work I do!  It's so exciting I can hardly contain myself!  It's kind of a funny story though.  For those of you who don't know, I was working on a film that I had originally thought would be paying me.  Upon arriving however, they told me that they couldn't pay me because if they paid one student, they would have to pay all of the students something.  They could give me class credit though!  Wait, did we miss something?  Could it be that I graduated and I don't need class credit anymore, but I do need money for all of those lovely student loans I've got to pay off.  Ah, but I digress.  So I told them I would stay around long enough for them to find someone to replace me, also that I would come back the next week Thursday and Friday when they had a lot of extras and would need extra help.  On Friday when I was down there, I woke up to a phone call from my mentor who had a job that she couldn't take, but she wondered if I would like it?  Let me think, YES!  I was so excited!  She asked if I could be there in 30 minutes because they were kind of fumbling around last minute for someone, so I showed up with my makeup mostly done, and my hair was a disaster, but at that point they sure didn't care!  They were just happy to have someone there to take care of things!  The cast was relatively small as was the crew, but they were great!  I had the best time working with everyone (and I'm not just saying that because some of them might read this!) and I made a lot of great new friends!  I can easily say that it's one of the best times I've ever had making money!  I was the only girl on set for most of the day so at some points it was definitely a tease Tiffany day, but I'm tough!  I can take it!  Plus, it was all done in good humor.  The guys were amazing and I would work with them again for sure!  We went from 9.30 am to 12.30 pm.  We did some hiking and plenty of climbing around on things, plus we pulled very long hours!  9.30 am to 12.30 am!  Whew, but overall it wasn't too bad!  One of the best moments was when we piled me plus 4 full grown men into my little corolla and went into Orem for Burger King!  That was quite the sight to behold!  Plus, I told them that we should maybe not swear while in my car.  The conversations became quite noticeably less at that point!  They guys were sweet though trying to clean up their language a bit for me.  One of the other great moments was when they staged an explosion!  It was way cool looking!  It was very real looking (not that I've ever seen a real cave explosion, but that's not the point now is it.)  Here are a couple of pictures!

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I wanted to also put up the video from the explosion, but unfortunately I am still figuring out this new program I'm using so I couldn't make it work.  Maybe later if I remember!  It's pretty amazing what they can do!  It totally looked like rocks were flying out of the cave when it was really bits of cork and stuff!  Anyway, it was great working with such talented people and having that kind of experience!  More to come shortly I hope!

04 May 2008

Onward and Upward!

Well, it has indeed been a while since my last post and since I promised I would have a new blog up... well, let's just say a while ago, I figured no time like the present right?!

So I graduated! SURPRISE! Yeah, for those of you who don't know (I don't know how many people who read this don't know I graduated, but I'll put that out there just in case!) Last Friday I officially graduated from Brigham Young University with a degree in Theatre Arts Studies. I majored with an emphasis in Costume and Makeup Design which is really just code for I majored in coloring. Not really, I LOVE what I do and it is really much more difficult and rewarding then it seems (so if you know anyone who needs a designer feel free to pass along my name!) I digress though... The graduation was awesome! For commencement on Thursday, Elder Bednar came and spoke to us! It was great! Don't ask me what he spoke about, but I found out that we share a birthday! That's pretty cool! I got to hang out with Jeff and Jess during the ceremony which was a life saver! We took tons of pictures and had just an amazing time together! Afterward, I found my family which included my cousins and we took some great pictures! (as seen below)

Jessica, Linzy, Erica, Tiffany, and Jeff before Commencement (P.S. It was FREEZING!)

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Friday was my actual convocation. It was pretty cool seeing all of my friends I've spent so much time with and had so many long days (and nights) in productions dressed up and ready to start out on our individual paths in life. I'm definitely going to miss everyone, but I'm so excited to be starting out into 'the rest of my life' whatever that means! I would have to say that one of the greatest moments of the whole thing was when we were all getting ready to walk across the stage and one of the slightly stranger girls we have classes with smiled at Jeff and me with her prosthetic vampire teeth in. Yes, she walked and had all of her pictures taken with fangs on. Jeff and I just stared at her, then at each other in absolute shock. For one of the few times in my life I truly had nothing to say. Scary. When we finished taking all of the last time pictures around campus I turned in my cap and gown, cleared out of my apartment for the last time, and headed home to Salt Lake City! Home sweet home!

Tiffany, Jeff, and Erica in all stages of being dressed before Convocation Me with Rodger (one of my most favorite professors ever!!!) before Convocation
Shaking the dean's hand I think
Getting the diploma cover from Rodger!
Jeff and Tiffany as graduates! Hooray!!!
My fabulous family!
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Saturday we had a great BBQ at our place! It was so cool to have family around to celebrate the graduations of this year! Three of the four cousins who were graduating were able to be there with our families! It was really neat! Of course I didn't get to spend much time at home because I had to go right back down to Provo Monday morning to work on a film that's being shot down there right now. More to come on that later...Stay tuned!

Anyway, I am so excited to be starting off into who knows what! I am sure it will be exciting at the very least! Thanks to everyone who made my graduation weekend so special, especially my family! I love you all tons! XOXOXO

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